To face today seems too daunting. I really just feel like curling up in my bed and staying there today. I am really lacking the desire to press on and move forward this morning. I tossed and turned until about six this morning and then finally fell asleep until a little after nine. That already puts me off schedule (once again) regarding my intake. I also woke up with a headache and tremendous cramping. I just don't feel like fighting today, or right now for that matter. However, I know I need to choose to fight even though I don't feel like I can... or even want to...
2Through Him also we have [our] access (entrance, introduction) by faith into this grace (state of God's favor) in which we [firmly and safely] stand. And let us rejoice and exult in our hope of experiencing and enjoying the glory of God.
3Moreover [let us also be full of joy now!] let us exult and triumph in our troubles and rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that pressure and affliction and hardship produce patient and unswerving endurance.
4And endurance (fortitude) develops maturity of character (approved faith and tried integrity). And character [of this sort] produces [the habit of] joyful and confident hope of eternal salvation.
5Such hope never disappoints or deludes or shames us, for God's love has been poured out in our hearts through the Holy Spirit Who has been given to us.
6While we were yet in weakness [powerless to help ourselves], at the fitting time Christ died for (in behalf of) the ungodly.
I am once again reminded of the charge set out for me as a daughter of God. It seems like an impossible charge most of the time. However, it is vital to try and take on the challenge of rejoicing and exulting in the face of troubles, challenges, and sufferings. It is a part of this journey and walk of faith that operates in hope of experiencing the glory of God. As I choose to rejoice in the face of the current troubles, challenges, and sufferings, patient endurance will be molded in me and then molded into mature character that will result in living a lifestyle and in a manner of salvation with hope of receiving an eternal crown one the time of testing has passed.
I am also reminded that Christ was given up for me - that He died for me - when I was yet a weak sinner who was unable to save myself, when I was sinking in sin. I am still amazed that God poured out His love on me, but I will choose to believe that He sees the worth of my life that I've yet to clearly comprehend.
I will press on in the face of adversity, and I will press on in hope of receiving the fulfillment of God's promise for TRIUMPH and VICTORY!
It took me over an hour to get down the first round I chose to face today, but I got it down... I will continue pressing on today... I will take the rest of today moment by moment!